Sunday, February 28, 2010

Cry of My heart


There is a great deal of depression that has overtaken my soul,
It floods deep within, into every inch that makes me whole.
I wonder and worry of thought throughout the day,
What is to come, to my dismay.
As a flood of tears pour out of me in all my expressions,
more and more comes, more and more depression.

I assure myself everything is ok!
But who am I fooling?
Then I burst into a spirit of rage.
I have questions, and there are answers.
But I'm afraid and much too weak,
When I try to explain,
I hear I'm hearing wrong and need to be meek.
But this is how I feel, there's no wrong or right,
But as I battle with myself, I always lose the fight.

I feel intimidated sometimes by others,
But as I said "This is how I feel"
The pain in me is very real.
I lose control, my thought go wild,
and here I am only a child.
If only you knew what I thought,
If only you knew what I fought.
I need my thoughts held captive.


Oh God, assure me I'm thinking normal
and you'll help me think positive.
I'm hurting, I need you!
Please don't give up on me!
One day I will always make you smile!

Love,
Your Child:(

Down again

 

I've been pushed down so many times
I feel this time will be the last
as I lay here fading
my thoughts are invaded by memories of my past
I feel the pressures of shame and rejection building
as I lay here on the floor
I have no strength to get up
I'm not worth it any more...

No one hears me, understands me
I speak in silence
hoping that someone will see my words, my message
hoping to find love, it has arrived so divine
I wish for a stronger, better life
filled with everlasting touch
I dream the future, but hold the past
 
My body is brimmed with so many confusions
Am I really here experiencing fullness?
 
 

I must be, the pain is so real
the hurt I feel could never be imagined
but I will pull through into greatness
and destroy whatever faces into me
As I struggle I will fight until the end
Whenever it may come..
!!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Thala back on Track

 

 Ajith quit racing a few years ago following a back injury and has since dedicated his time to cinema and family. But like all racers say, racing is an addiction that no amount of rehab can cure! The adrenaline rush and pure thrill of the sport blurs all harbingers of ill-fate! Once a racer, always a racer! So that quite explains why Ajith could not resist a race when it happened right at home.. 


 

                           Ajith also had to pacify his fans at the venue who went berserk after they were disappointed with his no-show at the race.  Ajith walked out of the last two rounds since his car developed a technical fault..
On Valentine's Day the star tried his hands again at the wheel for the MRF Racing Challenge. Ajith was happy to make the come back and said he was missing the sport while he was away.

However the actor couldn’t finish the act as he wanted. "The gear box got stuck and I could not go beyond the first gear. But life is full of ups and downs, and I have learnt how to accept such things." The actor said...

 

Ajith’s wife Shalini and daughter Anoushka were there to cheer the star driver. Speed thrills for Ajith again...


Saturday, February 13, 2010

Dedicated to Mah Sweet heart

 
 This is to thank you for being by side
For comforting and caring when I was all confused inside.
This is for the phone calls you make every day
Just to tell me “I love you” every minute of the day.

The way you take my hand in yours
For all the world to see
That this is the woman
Who is most special to me.

You always seem to know
When I need a hug, kiss or smile…
You never cease to amaze me
When you say, “I'm here…let's talk for a while.”

In decades past we've had our share
Of ups and downs and problems galore
But you are the one who remained at my side
Never thinking of walking out the door.

I adore the way you tell me,
“You are my forever best companion,”
I love the way I believe in you…
And that you will be there till the end.

Thank you for all the time you give me
And for saying, “It's never enough…”
Thank you for listening as I ramble on…
When things become rather tough.

We are in the best years of our lives
Thirty four years on our journey together
I want to grow old with you…and you with me
I want to love YOU---FOREVER..

To My Love

 

I think of you often...I do,
From morning 'til evening I do,
When memories bring laughter
Or moments bring pain,
There is faithfulness, too, once again..

And time always shows me
And God always shows me
Both sunshine and rain,
How, we gain yearly
From the love we're share dearly.

So, my dear, my sweet Heart,
Remember our love, My honey,
For we've come so far and there's so much to come
And I have love to yet give
For the life we will live...together.

Make little of what makes you cry,
Be sure that what makes you cry
Has greater desire and a more certain will
To pray for His help from above
and restore the feelings of love.

So let's stir up our passion today,
Let memories give way today,
To the now and the future
For the joys and hopes and for all
The times my heart hears you call...!!

I'm so glad,
I'm so glad,
I love you &
You love me too..!!


Valentine Festival

Happy Valentine's day

 

Valentines day is here
Just wishing you were here
You will always be near
My heart will never be the same
Beneath my skin, my soul lies waiting for you
Everyday I think of you I feel blue
Never give up hope
Remembering the first kiss
All I ask is to be with you
And for you to be my Valentine
For I will always cherish your heart in mine ...!!

  

Love can be red, like the intense heat of a passionate kiss
.....the color of sweetness
.....the color of strawberries
Love can be blue, like the comfort we take in a pair of denim jeans
.....the color of strength
.....the color of perfect skies
Love can be yellow, bright and warm like the morning sun
.....like the sounds of laughters of children on the merry-go-round
.....like the sounds of fun from the boys flying kites in the open
fields
Love can be green, peaceful and serene I can hear your heart beats
.....it is the feeling of a loving hand that touch a grieving heart
.....it is the whispering of trusting words to a distressing soul
Love can be orange, the loudness of it can drive you up a wall
.....it can drive you to sing like nobody is listening
.....it can drive you to dance like nobody is watching
Love can be purple, the courage we need to love bravely and unselfishly
.....the moment I first kiss you i know that i am not afraid to risk involvement .....the day the declaration of your love for me was made known to the world ...!!


Friday, February 5, 2010

ARR- Proud Indian


Ace music composer A.R. Rahman scooped two awards at the 52nd Annual Grammy Awards ceremony in Los Angeles on Jan 31 night (pictured left), but Ustad Amjad Ali Khan and Ustad Zakir Hussain, who were also nominated, could not manage to win the golden gramophones.

Rahman was honoured for his compositions in Danny Boyle's rags-to-riches film "Slumdog Millionaire", getting the awards for best compilation soundtrack for a motion picture and "Jai ho" being the best motion picture song.

Rahman shares the Grammy with veteran lyricist Gulzar and Tanvi Shah who wrote the Spanish lyrics for it.

Rahman, Gulzar and Shah made the Indian presence felt at the 52nd edition of the Annual Grammy Awards held at the Staples Centre.

"Jai ho", that has won various international awards including the Oscars last year, is from Danny Boyle's rags-to-riches film "Slumdog millionaire". The song was sung by Sukhvinder Singh, Mahalaxmi Iyer, Vijay Prakash along with Rahman and Shah.

Sarod maestro Ustad Amjad Ali Khan, who was nominated in the best traditional world music album category for his album "Ancient Sounds", lost out to "Douga Mansa" by African Kora player Mamadou Diabate.

Tabla player Ustad Zakir Hussain, who was nominated in the best classical crossover album category for his album "The Melody of Rhythm" that features works by Leonard Slatkin, Bela Fleck, Hussain and Edgar Meyer (Detroit Symphony Orchestra), also did not win. He had won a Grammy last year for his collaborative album "Global Drum Project".

The best classical crossover album award went to "Yo-Yo Ma & Friends: Songs Of Joy And Peace".